Beautiful way of writing and leading the reader to have the question in the middle of the curiosity of “what will be your question?”. I shuffled the questions i already have floating in my head and most of them started with “when will i…”. I hope i have answers soon, take actions towards them even sooner! Brilliant writer as always ✨
"If you knew removing yourself would solve the problem - would you?"
When I asked this question a couple days ago [for some novel plot/character dev things] I meant it this way:
"How would these characters answer this based on this situation/who they are? Do they feel guilt? Shame? Responsible? is it being asked to them by themselves? Is it coercive or self-reflective?"
But, I chose it for this cos I saw it and thought about answering it myself... My brain thought more about it as autonomy/choice/boundaries/accountability/progress.
Am I at the point where choosing to remove myself - even by just making a change I have been putting off from fear - is possible? Would it solve "the problem?" Mine? Ours? Theirs?
Am I willing to make that choice for myself, even if it means rocking the boat, potentially upsetting others, or feeling like I am giving up on the things I have been staying for?
I don't know MY answer for THAT interpretation.... Yet.
I've been enjoying asking questions with nuance or different ways people can interpret them, so this was a really well-timed prompt!
This has me spinning inside my mental library of archived footage from various relationships, the index cards pointing me to a synapse location to recall the emotions, the unanswered questions, the desire for logical understanding, and the need for validation, as if I needed someone else to tell me I was alive, and had value, even though I could feel the pain in my own tears, and my worth had been sucked out of me like a vacuum - they took it all, and never put anything back, never replenishing me.
I have seen so many people recently talk about feeling similarly. I have to check with myself multiple times a day to remind myself I am alive and have value. It's not easy and has taken a year [or 4 if you go from the start?] and will take a lot longer, I feel.
Not knowing why, when, sometimes even who... for me, it feels impossible to move past most the time, but having that info probably won't ever happen.... Today I made the choice that I won't be available if they decide to "give me closure" - It did feel great to make it my choice and have some boundaries so I can focus on my own worth and my own progress ^^
Beautiful way of writing and leading the reader to have the question in the middle of the curiosity of “what will be your question?”. I shuffled the questions i already have floating in my head and most of them started with “when will i…”. I hope i have answers soon, take actions towards them even sooner! Brilliant writer as always ✨
"If you knew removing yourself would solve the problem - would you?"
When I asked this question a couple days ago [for some novel plot/character dev things] I meant it this way:
"How would these characters answer this based on this situation/who they are? Do they feel guilt? Shame? Responsible? is it being asked to them by themselves? Is it coercive or self-reflective?"
But, I chose it for this cos I saw it and thought about answering it myself... My brain thought more about it as autonomy/choice/boundaries/accountability/progress.
Am I at the point where choosing to remove myself - even by just making a change I have been putting off from fear - is possible? Would it solve "the problem?" Mine? Ours? Theirs?
Am I willing to make that choice for myself, even if it means rocking the boat, potentially upsetting others, or feeling like I am giving up on the things I have been staying for?
I don't know MY answer for THAT interpretation.... Yet.
I've been enjoying asking questions with nuance or different ways people can interpret them, so this was a really well-timed prompt!
This has me spinning inside my mental library of archived footage from various relationships, the index cards pointing me to a synapse location to recall the emotions, the unanswered questions, the desire for logical understanding, and the need for validation, as if I needed someone else to tell me I was alive, and had value, even though I could feel the pain in my own tears, and my worth had been sucked out of me like a vacuum - they took it all, and never put anything back, never replenishing me.
[Oh I am not intending this to be advice or telling you what to do, just have been going through this myself!]
We can share, so we can all heal, cumulatively, collectively, and help others as a result.
I have seen so many people recently talk about feeling similarly. I have to check with myself multiple times a day to remind myself I am alive and have value. It's not easy and has taken a year [or 4 if you go from the start?] and will take a lot longer, I feel.
Not knowing why, when, sometimes even who... for me, it feels impossible to move past most the time, but having that info probably won't ever happen.... Today I made the choice that I won't be available if they decide to "give me closure" - It did feel great to make it my choice and have some boundaries so I can focus on my own worth and my own progress ^^